Hey all,

Figured it was about time I got that dramatic, lengthy passage off of my profile and away from the public eye. So without ado, an update to my journal. Right here. Right now.

So yeah, life's going good. I could complain, sure, but that's not my style. At least, not so much anymore. I was able to figure out the one thing that kept haunting my journals and plaguing my mind for a year or two. That issue with that one girl. I finally matured. Finally grew up. In the sense that I opened my eyes entirely and truly saw everything for what it really was. I basically made a mistake with her. I became blinded by what I thought I saw, what I thought I felt, and I was vested in a very sappy, depressing state-of-mind. After really finding out who she was and what she was doing, I decided to finally put my foot down. I wasn't going to be played with and manipulated. Looking back on all that happened with her and what I felt, I don't feel stupid, I feel almost disgusted. Like, "I really fell into that?"

It's odd. There are times where you think and swear to God that you're doing the right thing. That what course you're sailing is the only one you should be sailing. Deep down...something isn't right. You may or may not feel it in the moment, but it's there. Until you decide to step away, look out from another window than your own, change your set of lenses for another, wear their pants instead of yours...okay, odd analogy. But I'm sure you get my flow of things here. Obviously, sometimes we need to open our doors to other people. We need to stop being so trapped by a hatred, a love, an idea and really fit ourselves into another piece of the puzzle.

It can be difficult. I mean, let's be realistic here, we have our own lives. People have theirs. New concept? I'd hope not. Granted, it's a skill to try seeing into the mind of another person, but the benefits to doing so are immense. Grasp new perspectives. Bend them, navigate them. Discover what they are and what they can mean. In this process, you find knowledge. Change. And to an extent, power. Identify, personify, magnify.

Well, stepping away from the ol' words of wisdom, my life is smooth. Work is going well down at Hollywood Video, school is...well...school. lol I recently asked this great girl on a date and she said yes, so I'm pretty much psyched. She's amazing, really! Super active and proactive. She dabbles in tons of activities, etc, and is a go-getter. So I'm excited to figure out when her schedule is open.
Also, I've been enjoying a lot of friendships I have right now. It's great, knowing who your real friends are. We've had a blast, throwing around some hilarious ideas and just being so spontaneous and ridiculous...it's just too awesome.
I'm sick at the moment too...caught somethin' nasteh. I woke up feeling drunk. With mono. Blech. lol Any aspect aside from the physical one is in great condition. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually...whatever. It's all good.
And in other news, I'm playing Dead Space. And man...is it eerie. lol Keeps you on the edge and fires up your heart rate like no other...I definitely recommend it to the junkie looking for some adrenaline rushes. Or one, big one. xD Until later, peace out all! Best of wishes to all of you and thanks for reading my fantastically lengthy novel.

-Mikey